a story of messed up kid

Dude,

i was having a problems.

began hearing voices when i was 16

i lost who i was and become something else.

you asking me why?

it just because some memories in my past

but i hope this emotions of mine will last.

missing whole family maybe turn into crying 

and it makes me feel that my heart and mind are dying.

i was always searching for happiness and kinda car free.

i hurt many people along the way,

i guess the voices were there to guide me and punish me.

it has been hard to accept that i have an illness.

i sometimes still believe in my delucions, they feel real.

its a struggle day to day,

i am alone in a lot of ways.

i missed the time when im not all alone.

i mean when my family were all in home.

when we eat together it was so nice and fun because 

we talked and laughed together as long as we can.

but you know, i dont want a pity and i dont want to be treated different,

i just want someone to understand.

and i guess, im gonna look for a kind and good partner,

so that i wont feel that i was just a dreamer.

for me, being alone isn't esy to bear.

im gonna find my adventure starting from here.